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So in a week, exactly, I will be Mrs. Jayceon Rashard Wallace. In some ways, I feel like saying finally. But the whole saying...when you marry someone, you marry their family..has me shook. Only because I am convinced his mother fucking loathes my exsistance. That, and him and my mother have their hate spells, I am very aware of. Plus, a lot of things are going to change after next week. I can't just go out whenever I want, since I will .. be married. I won't just be dating him, I'll be his wife and we may lead different lives but I can't see him condoning me flying out every few days or once every two weeks to party and be with my friends. I don't..and won't be housebound. But I have to start thinking of more socially acceptable things to do. Cutback on the partying, and focus on a job. I will still be remodeling clubs and stuff, doing my thing.. but after talking to Luz, I've decided to get my sketches put to use and do my lingerie and bikini line. Maybe it'll extend past that, but for now I want to focus on those and shop my ideas to my family and my godmother to see what they think. I have an eye for it, and print ads. The first set of ads, I have an idea of how to do it. It will be risque, but I can market it in Mens and Women's mags. I want to launch it...big, like mass production of sorts. Like La Perla ...just not so blah and regular. I told Jayceon about it, and he liked the idea. Since I wanted to do the ads personally, as in me and Jayceon be in one set, then Luz and some hardbody in another. We've both got a big ass, of course I will have to do a less risque thing for younger girls, and Neela can do those ads. For the skinny minis, anyway. Pin-upy with... like I don't know. I had this image in my head of something like the T.O. spread, but then I was thinking more sexual. Jayceon said he wants to be holding my chest. But I don't want it to come out trashy or like a cover of a cheap ass erotica book. So we'll have to see.
Aside from that, the wedding stuff is pretty much done. I love the choices on a lot of things, and there's a few things still to do. The arch is beautiful, I love it. Jayceon has been so helpful with everything, and we've chosen our wedding song, which I won't say what it is until people hear it at the wedding. Sometimes, it's the little things that count so much more than the others. I prefer a lot of little things to remember than few big ones. We've went on a ton of dates, and been to a lot of places but after a while a lot of stuff like that doesn't matter, or I don't remember it clearly without an item or two from that time, but the last week or two? I will remember forever. I have a lot of other memories, of course, but when he's in rare form it's the best thing ever. Tomorrow he plays against the Mavericks at home. Then we have to fly out for the Bobcats & the Pistons games -- which I may have to skip one of the games to make sure everything goes as planned. The rehersal dinner was originally going to be Friday but we have to do it Thursday. I got my days mixed up, so I hope no one hates me for that. There is just soo much going on that my dates get tripped up, though the resturaunt is reserved for us for Thursday.
I woke up this morning and I was rushing all over. I had to drop Jay off at practice, make sure the rest of the stuff except the flowers were there for the arch, check the floral arrangements, make sure the cater crew was all ready and got the menu down. My mother is also in town so, that's just crazy in it's own. I showed her and the girls the house this afternoon, let Neela take my truck to take mom, Maia, and Luz to select their shoes that I handpicked and pretty much just let them choose which ones they wanted. They dropped me off at home so I could finish making some calls and then go back to the arena and pick up Jayceon. He's been pretty calm while I've been running around like crazy, but finally we're home, and just relaxing for a bit. Everything gets super crazy and I just can't think / settle down and think. But a lot of things are done, invitations gone out and everything is just slowly taking form. The house looks amazing. Marble everywhere, and the seating arrangement still has to be completely set and right after the wedding we have to take our wedding photos and all of this other stuff. Or maybe we'll do it before. I am just ready for us to start past the wedding, you know? Be married, and start setting up our house, get everything else put together and relax, take things easy for a while. So far, the whole wedding thing has been kept low-key and the public will find out when we're ready.
I soo.. want some Jamba Juice, right now. Jamba Juice and stuff'd crust pizza. I should get to ordering some before it's too late. Fuck eatting only salads and lean meats before the wedding. Cardio in the morning.
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